10.12.2002

Well, a perfect middle to a perfect day. If your definition of perfect is very similar to your definition of shitty. After becoming the doormat for one person, and then comforting another when she almost became a doormat, i'm kinda on the emotionally drained side right now. So if you need sagelike advice or any other kind of advice, you can just fuck right off because it's time for the return of introverted Cole. (there are exceptions to this rule, you all know who you are)
posted at 19:39

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And the Lord speaketh down from heaven saying "yay, and nothing shall ever work out for you."
And the Lord did flatten michelle's tires, and he was satisfied, for now the $150 they had in savings would have to be partially used to replace.
And the Lord did grin, for without the $150 the couple could not pay for their bankruptcy hearing, and the case would be thrown out, flinging them into collection agencies and despair.

Jesus fucking christ! Apparently God himself is out to make sure nothing works out right for us. We had managed to dig enough money (barely) out of michelle's check to put the 150 aside for the bankruptcy. Michelle goes out to her car to go to work this morning, and her tire is flat. Now we have to take 50 bucks away from that, and there's no way to replace it by nov. 1, the absolute due date for her bankruptcy. If they don't get the money, the case gets thrown out, and all of the rabid creditors come flocking to our door again.
posted at 09:15

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10.11.2002

My email: Tamahome@ffosg.com
The Question: why is it all worth it?
The Prize: i dunno, my eternal gratitude?
posted at 22:42

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well, after a 7 hr power nap o.O;; i guess it's time to pick a new song of the day xD
Song of the day: Cake - Hem of your Garment
posted at 20:20

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Ugh...i think i've just eaten my last Drumlin breakfast.
I've decided the most heart-wrenching sound in the world is running back on the dead run to your apartment to use the bathroom, and hearing that your roommate is in the shower when you get there.
posted at 09:05

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right, given that i slept for more than 6 hours, it's time for a new song of the day.

Song of the day: Sparta - Cut Your Ribbon

just download it and listen to it, willya?
posted at 03:19

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It's friday, it's 3 am, it's time to party!!! I'm your host cole, with me as always is nobody :(.

We've got a great blog for you tonight, jampacked full of drama, hijinx, sex, drugs and rock and roll. (okay, i can't deliver on all of that, but there will be drama, there always is xD) I basically spent today wiping up the residue from yesterday...i'm not pissy anymore, and i'm prolly gonna spend the night at chelle's, provided her roommate's gone, of course. and we all know what it means when i spend the night at chelle's. other than the dramarific aim day i had, there's nothing new in the world of cole. enjoy your morning!
posted at 03:18

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10.10.2002

Oh, a new feature for the edification of those who read my blog for entertainment purposes, (and i know you're out there):
Song of the day: (day meaning the duration of time between when i sleep for > 6 hours)

Song of the day: Flaw - My Letter

Download it, listen to it, then download the lyrics. Awesome song.
posted at 10:32

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okay, now i simply have nothing worthwhile to say...
I'm encompassed by this aura of bleh. Everything feels lackluster, i'm pissy, yelling at people and i have no good reason. Even the stupid bullshit from the center was enough to ruin my night. Yeah, xy-bitch, if you ever somehow get in here to read this, you somehow managed to ruin my night by being a worthless mod. Oh well, i guess i'm letting that which does not matter, stick around to bother me.
posted at 10:28

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I have nothing to say. . .

temperatures around the world: 58, 62, 49, 70
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10.09.2002

I should try sleeping occasionally. My body's running on fumes and i'm sure it'll crash sometime. 5 hrs sleep in 3 days really isn't healthy, i suppose...but it's me. I made a few hazy topics at dbzcenter, i'm prolly gonna pass out soon, but things between chelle and i are all patched up for now. Slap on a new coat of paint, plaster over the holes and it's as good as new...

in addition, 12+18=30 [/lame joke]
posted at 06:36

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10.08.2002

well, i need to update this tonight, because if i don't i'll forget about it. basically worthless day in general. had some ups, some very very downs near the end. i just wish i could make her understand.

our relationship is perfect when i'm happy. but if i let one tear slip through, things get messy. it's getting to the point where i feel she's unreachable whenever i'm down, because if it's even partly her fault, all she does is clam up and sit in a corner, staring. eventually i get guilty for making HER feel bad, and apologize for doing nothing, and make like everything's okay. it's gotten to be a habit with us, and i want it to stop...but by now it's so engrained that i can't make it stop. not to mention that she will fall back on the "i can't change" safety net again, like always. as much as i beg, plead, wish, or hope for her to be there for me, something's there. something i don't know. perhaps she does, but i doubt it. she doesn't know anything that's going on inside her head, i'm afraid. maybe a nice, long breakfast will get some of these demons out of my head.
posted at 04:28

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10.07.2002

There was a fire somewhere this morning, i heard the fire trucks and ambulance go rollin' by the house. Although with all the brick in this town, i highly doubt anything was on fire...prolly just a cat stuck in a tree or something, or the university forgot to let the fire department know they were doing a firedrill.

On a happier note, my unemployment deferrment for my student loans came through today, so i'm officially not responsible for my loans until march of '03.
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10.06.2002

Well, after what could've only been defined as a "bleh" night, it turned into an okay morning. Drumlin fucked with my system a little, but now i'm okay. I guess that's all i got for now, i'm sure i'll have more later. xD
posted at 12:23

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