11.23.2002

Well, it would appear that i'm done being sick for now. With the exception of a nagging cough that i can only assume is bronchitis, the sore throat, body aches, etc etc are gone.

It's just been an overall shitty day today, i've just wanted to beat the shit out of anything that would sit still long enough to be bludgeoned to death. Sadly, i didn't find anything.
posted at 23:33

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11.22.2002

Right, good news is too good to last. I just got off the phone with my father, Cocoa got hit by a car and died tonight. I almost looked forward to seeing him more than my parents sometimes when i came home. Even if they were going to yell at me, he was still happy, wagging his tail and bouncing around as if he didn't care. But no more.
posted at 20:50

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Well, the main thing that has been weighing on my mind for the last few weeks is finally taken care of. Now i can begin to relax and prepare for my trip home.

I miss home, so going back will be nice for a while. I'll try to update while i'm there, living the simple life, with the 24kbps internet connection, and my parents, and thanksgiving dinner :)

Otherwise, no news that's fit to print. Found out today that we'll have enough money to buy x-mas presents, possibly even enough for chelle and i to buy some for each other. *yay* I was really worried that i wouldn't be able to get presents for my family. I know they'd understand, but that doesn't change the fact that i'd feel like shit about it. It matters not, however, as michelle gets an extra paycheck in december...

Beyond those little things, i can say that my mind is finally at rest for a while, now that i know i'm not being taken to court or having to sell my computer and everything else valuable that i own.
posted at 13:43

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11.20.2002

define irony:

a group of children, who've never known love, sharing their cynical views on what love is. if they had half an understanding, it would fry their pathetic half-witted minds.
posted at 20:58

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Children are so worthless. (and by children, i'm referring to people under the age of 18, and some others)

they think they're world is the most important thing ever, and they can't see past their little lives to see that there are plenty of bigger things happening in the world. apparently "losing a friend" (translated as "she has a crush on someone else") is more important than anything possibly on the global scale. losing a cat is enough to justify you treating the world like shit.

to these children, i have one thing to say, listen closely, here it comes

fuck off!

good luck with the rest of your lives, if this kind of thing is enough to throw you into such a deplorable depression that you can't see straight.
posted at 09:12

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11.19.2002

This "only sleeping every 2 days" thing is really starting to work out :)

eventually i'll be regulated to a normal schedule...or something.
posted at 08:20

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a bleh day that started off bleh and ended bleh with just enough bleh in the middle to make me absolutely ill.

actually, the malaise was interrupted by fury for a few hours, but that subsided and returned to bleh again.
posted at 04:51

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11.17.2002

Am I more handsome
cut up my face
am I stronger
break my neck cowardly
am I smarter
kill me and eat my brain
Do I have your wife
kill me and eat me up completely
then eat me up completely

Am I more honest
bite off my tongue
am I richer
then take everything from me
am I more courageous
kill me and eat my heart
Do I have your wife
kill me and eat me up completely
then eat me up completely
but lick up the plate

Jealousy is cooking

Do I have smooth skin
pull it off in strips
Do I have clear eyes
take the light from me
Do I have a pure soul
kill it in flames
Do I have your wife, then
kill me and eat me up completely
then eat me up completely
but lick up the plate

Jealousy is cooking

Song of the Day: Rammstein - Eifersucht
posted at 07:28

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no sleep for me. but it matters not, since i feel like a million bucks right now. perhaps it's the cold temperature in here, or something.
posted at 06:33

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I never thought i would've been happy to be back home, but michelle's dorm room just seems to make me sicker. ugh.

so i came home, took some drugs and i'm feeling a bit better than i was. a few more drugs and a few more million hours of sleep and i might actually feel human again.

wish me luck, folks.
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